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Thursday, October 23, 2008

Just Breathe

Just Breathe
by: Vinci Filio

I wish there is an easier way
to always know what to say
when things are unclear
sometimes I wish I can disappear
but the thought of letting go
is like being defeated by a foe
what is there for me to do?
I guess....I can just deal with what I have to go through

Time is always changing
But here I am.....mis-prioritizing.
is that even a real word?
somebody please...loosen the cord!
there are too many things going on in this world...
and once again...it's getting cold!
my brain is not quite working
oh no...I forgot what I was saying.
I am so stressin'
but wait...no need to be racin'

I don't need to chase time
even though I love cooking with lime
what does that have to do with time?
didn't you hear, I can't find my dime?
this is getting confusing....
probably coz I am coughing....
this sickness is annoying...
and yet....I am working.....

maybe all I need to do is to breathe....

maybe all I want to do is to breathe....

maybe all I can do is simply that .....just breathe.

wow...what a difference that makes!
Now...I am ready to eat cakes!

Time is once again on my side...
I just forgot about my pride.
And here I am once again....just waiting....
for time to go on changing.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...: hey vinch....this is how I am feeling too! I like how you were serious and funny at the same time....I guess that's how I should look at life too....to be serious, but still have time to laugh.....

but thanks for the poem....it was certainly a good read.; October 23, 2008 at 9:17 AM
Anonymous said...: hey...amanda 4wrded me the link to ur blog.....nice family you got....and the poem was pretty insightful....

i never see you get stressed...but i guess ur also human! but u r still the coolest asian i know....; October 23, 2008 at 9:33 AM
Anonymous said...: oh...I am breathing...and sighing...and huffing......and more..

thank you for expressing what I have been thinking about...but you did it better than I would have said it...

keep sharing....; October 23, 2008 at 10:35 AM
Anonymous said...: hey vince.....nice thoughts there....ur so insightful....and so deliberate with your intention to convey a message....I love the lines:
" my brain is not quite working
oh no...I forgot what I was saying."

I have that problem all the time...and not because I am blonde either!

And I subscribed to your blog...ur a good writer. maybe you should have followed that dream of studying in journalism just like in highschool.... i remember the plays you wrote! They were all soo good....not to mention you were Mr. Funny Guy.....the good old days....; October 23, 2008 at 12:04 PM

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